The Sweetest Poison

labrador-380800_1280I woke up this morning with one thought on my mind: “I have been poisoned.”

Before I get to the point of this message, can I just use the next paragraph to complain about how bad I feel? In case you don’t want to read that part, you can skip it.

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I feel as sick as a dog. I hate feeling this way. My energy is drained. I have a headache. My sinuses are swollen. My nose feels stuffy. I have been sneezing like I am catching a cold. My joints ache. My knees feel stiff when I walk. My internal temperature gauge is off. I am cold one moment and hot the next. My face feels bloated. I feel heavier because I am retaining water. My skin feels clammy and itchy.

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I have these symptoms because I messed up. I let my arch enemy get to me. It affects me like an allergy.

My nemesis? Sugar. For me, it is the sweetest poison. In your weight loss journey, you need to know your weaknesses too and develop plans to deal with them.

I know this. So how did I allow sugar to deceive me again? As always, he was quite sneaky.  Here is what happened:

My husband Mike has an old recipe for making a brownie in a cup. It cooks in the microwave so you can have a brownie in 2 minutes.

I’d never tried to make one, but decided to do it last week out of curiosity. After tasting the brownie, it was just okay. Then I got what I thought was a bright idea.

We had a whole box of unused instant coffee in the pantry. So I decided to substitute the cocoa in the brownie recipe for instant coffee. I reasoned that the coffee was going to waste and this would be a good way to use it.

Oh my goodness. That coffee brownie tasted so good! And it was easy and quick too.

And so my descent began for the week. After dinner, I’d think “A coffee brownie sure would taste  good right now.” And I would prepare one. One day, I had 2 brownies! In my mind, I saw it as like drinking a cup of coffee.

But that was a lie.

The coffee brownie had a lot more sugar than I typically drink in a cup of coffee. Plus, I don’t drink coffee that often – maybe once or twice a month.

I started the week full of energy. But here at the end of the week, I am just full of regret. While having sugar every once in a while does not cause such symptoms in me, eating it every day does.

I should have remembered the wise advice in Proverbs 25:27:

It is not good to eat much honey; So to seek one’s own glory is not glory.”

While the brownie didn’t have honey it in, it is full of sugar just the same. So what do you do when you realize you have messed up?

Rather than condemning yourself for the fall, analyze where you slipped! My mistake was not having the coffee brownie once, but in having them every day this week. I know that sugar is a big weakness of mine but I was pretending that it isn’t.

I don’t buy sugary foods because of this fact. Now, I won’t be making coffee brownies anymore for the same reason. I take responsibility because I am the one who chose to ignore the truth.

I don’t want to keep on feeling as sick as a dog. That’s why I took the time to write down in detail about how I feel now. I want my energy and ease of movement back!

Oh, I just remembered another scripture that convicted me:

As a dog returns to his own vomit, So a fool repeats his folly (Proverbs 26:1).”

This goes right along with me feeling sick as a dog, right? Thank you, Holy Spirit!

Now conviction is different from condemnation. Condemnation makes you feel bad about yourself. But with conviction comes a plan to make things right.

The good news is I already have my recovery plan. When I make eating mistakes (and yes, I do occasionally), then my best friends are water, green tea with lemon, and vegetables.

Today, I will increase my ideal amount of water by a cup or two to flush the excess sugar out of my body. I am also drinking green tea with lemon because that helps me re-balance physically also.

Plus, I will increase my vegetable intake, in particular green vegetables. They have healing properties and restore my energy.

So lesson learned.

Here’s my advice to you: When you realize you’ve made a mistake, don’t keep going down the same road. I used to do that. I’d say, “I messed up so I might as well keep on eating!”

But that makes about as much sense as stumbling on stairs and because of that, you decide to throw yourself down the rest of them. Regain your balance and keep moving forward.

I wish I could promise that you will never make mistakes on this journey. If I could find a way to guarantee that, I would be rich!

But I must tell you the truth:  On this weight loss journey, you will make mistakes. However, they can work out for your good if you learn from them.

Here’s another thing: you will go through different seasons in life in which the same strategies may no longer work for you. However, this can work out for your good if you exercise your creativity and create a new strategy to match your new season.

That’s why we call this lifestyle a journey. This is not about living a diet; it is about living your life.

Staying healthy is a good journey to take. I am glad I am on it. How about you?

On my health journey, I have now learned a new lesson: Watch out for coffee brownies!

Be blessed in health, healing, and wholeness,

Kimberly Taylor
Creator of the ‘Take Back Your Temple’ program
https://www.takebackyourtemple.com/program

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  • Heather says:

    Thank you so much , I have had an awful 3 weeks and have been looking at my food diary noticing that there is an increase in sugar since the summer . Comfort eating with the change of season. Yours is a word in season. I am getting back on track right now . Thank you so much Kimberly x

  • CD says:

    I needed to hear this this morning- thank you!

  • Sheryl says:

    I really appreciate the realness of your testimony. Thank you

  • Samone says:

    Thank you so much for this (about to cry) I came to my email box my personal on befree@samonedarden.com. Typically my cuisine is always open but in any case this blog post was on the top of my emails the title intrigued me so I opened it LOL just what I needed! Before I got married the Lord put me on a plan that cut out my sugar and bread intake I ate mostly veggies the only red meat I ate was lamb (love it) I literally forgot what God told me once I got married. I am married to a sugar fiend his whole family is addicted to sugar so I have gained over 35lbs in 5 years my water intake is terrible its like I am a walking Cactus. I stumbled on your blog a few weeks ago I am a personal chef so I know better and know what to eat but these cravings I have to get under wrap. I thank you and just ask for a little prayer for strength to get back on the path of eating for my temple!!!

  • Ashley says:

    WOW this was an on time word for me! This is exactly what needed to hear this morning.

  • Erica says:

    Thank you for sharing your experience. I often beat myself up when i mess up and feel defeated. Thanks for showing that even though you have lost all the weight, you still stumble from time to time, but you get back up. It’s not about being perfect, but changing, learning, and growing.

  • Ruth Oliver says:

    Thank you, Kimberly, for sharing this morning. Your experience is typical of many of us and I can say that I can personally relate!
    My nemesis is definitely sugar and it gets me going every time that I overindulge. I could go on and on and don’t know when to stop if I allow it to take over instead of God.
    I’m grateful that I’m still learning at my age, to leave certain foods- especially desserts out of my plan and look to Jesus!
    I confess that I bought some items yesterday that could wreak havoc with me if I bake them. I told myself ” Only one,” but who knows what might happen?
    Thank God they’re still on the counter and I can see them from my vantage point. I’m not touching them today because your message rang true!
    God bless,
    Ruth

  • Mary says:

    Hi Kimberly,

    All of your messages have been wonderful but this one really hits home. Being a lifetime dieter and after developing some health issues at the age of 41 last year, I took my health in my own hands and worked very hard to lose 70lbs in one year. However, like a dog returning to it’s vomit, I returned to some old eating habits and behaviors and have put back on 35lbs of that weight :(. No matter how hard I try to go back to how I was losing the weight before, that season has passed and now I am having to figure out a different way to get back to where I was. Sugar is also my nemesis and affects me in some of the ways you mentioned. I must get back to where I was. Thank you for your messages!

  • Brenda Svedberg says:

    Thank you for the wonderful words and scripture to use. I too am addicted to sugar. My Grandmother, Mother, and both Brothers are diabetic and overweight so I always blame my problems on “its in my genes”. After I go a couple of days without sweets I always seem to crash. I will keep this story within reach to reread as I try to beat the sugar habit.

  • Sherrie says:

    Excellent!

  • Sherry m. says:

    Thank you Kim for this valuable lesson.your transparency lets those of us still learning that the journey to better health is never over in this life. Knowing that your ten year journey to success continues to be just tHAT a journey! It’s encouraging to see that even the teacher( you) are still learning and sharing your journey with us. Your testimony is precious to us because you reflect God the father and His transforming power through Jesus Christ.

  • Susan says:

    Needed this! Glad to know others struggle.
    Praise Jesus, he knew I needed this today.

  • Maria says:

    I Thank God for you being in my trials of “Nemesis” I too have that craving, knowing that it’s my poison . I’m learning that I’m not alone.

  • Mary Moses says:

    I loved the analogy about throwing yourself down the stairs! You are absolutely right, there is NO condemnation in Christ Jesus!

  • Christine says:

    Kimberly, I had a terrible cold with many of the same symptoms as you shared in this article. It got me to thinking about how I have been eating and though I had been doing well, lately, I have grown fond of a particular granola bar that is dark chocolate with almonds. I have eaten one in the afternoon as my snack over the past several weeks — it is quite sweet under the guise of a “granola bar”!!! When I got sick, I did not want anything sweet so I had a mostly liquid diet with green tea and lemon, oranges, water and more water…no sugar though I wasn’t even thinking about sugar. No wonder my body recovered the way it did!!! Thank you for always sharing such wonderful words of wisdom and insight as we travel this fitness journey. This was excellent.

  • Amanda says:

    Wonderful article. Thanks for sharing

  • Cybil says:

    My God on this day:) your testimony not only blessed me but was confirmation of the goodness of God.
    See on this very day I wore a pair of jeans I hadn’t been comfortable in for awhile so I was feeling good about myself. I stopped by the corner store for gas and my favorite snack called my name and convinced me that I would work it off in my walk later. Man was it good. So good in fact that I stopped and got another snack on my way home, after all I am walking LATER. Once home I changed to go walk got distracted and somehow ended up at the local grocery. When I walked in the door fresh baked chocolate chip cookies awaited me and I answered the call. As I walked around a voice kept telling me that just because I gave into temptation there was no need to drown and I would look down at those cookies as if I was going to eat them any way despite what the voice said but it got louder and not only louder but encouraging reminding me of that good feeling I had a few hours earlier. Needless to say I put the cookies back and your testimony gave me another reason to smile and be very glad I did because I remember that sugar sickness all to well:)

  • Mary says:

    Thank you for this message. I love the stairs analogy. That is a good one to remember. We don’t need to eat all six or all ten! Why did we buy (or bake) them anyway!

  • Sue says:

    Kimberly,
    I am so sorry you went through what you did, but yes there is a lesson to be learned. We do have to pay the price physically for how we eat. I am on a medication that causes weight gain and have brought my calories too low to compensate just to maintain my weight which is already too low.
    I don’t like padding my calories just to eat more when I am not hungry. I am concerned about what I am doing to my body by eating only 1000 calories some days.
    Hugs,
    Sue

  • DiAne Lavallee says:

    Kimberly you have such a humorous way of bringing truth and I think that is why I love reading you so much!!! You are so right about your stairs analogy (love it) you don’t just throw yourself down the stairs if you miss one and you don’t keep going when you slip up but for years I had believed the lie the enemy hooked me up with “You see, you can’t do this… why bother ?” Freedom was just on the other side of that lie and when I got courageous enough to say no to that lie I became free to not “throw myself down those stairs” … we do such stupid stuff when we believe what we feel or perceive that we see! The victory and freedom that comes with it is all won or lost between the ears. I am so glad I found TBYT where there is never any shortage of people or material proclaiming truth to me! I thank the Lord for this.

  • Mary says:

    Another wonderful article about looking ahead and not dwelling in the past. Not easy but once again your writing gives me hope and points me in the right direction.

    I look so forward to your posts.

    Thank you!

  • Anu says:

    Wow! Rings true again. Thank you! Stay blessed .

  • Julie Olsen says:

    Yes- this is what I am going through right now. Going back to the old habits of over eating, eating fast food and desserts. Craving pizza, sweets and the 1/2 pound thick burger at Carl’s Jr.’s. Today I choose life! And I will keep moving forward! Thanks Kimberly- glad I checked in today!

    Julie Olsen

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